I'm so done with school. I love learning but I hate homework. I applied for graduation though so an end is in sight! Now I just have to figure out what I'm doing after graduation...

Just a few thoughts on yoga

I love yoga. It really helps to clear my mind. Something about the rhythm of my breath and the lengthening of my muscles just puts everything in perspective and I can sort through all of my thoughts and learn to trust my Heavenly Father. It's interesting to me that yoga is a religious practice for Hindus and Buddhists and yet, at least to me, it has implications in my own faith as well. That hour or so of meditation and focus really helps me understand my life better and my place in this world and in my Father's plan.

So many unanswered questions

And I doubt I'll receive answers any time soon.

I wish I knew things that I don't. I wish I knew what I would be doing after I graduate. I wish I knew how we would be able to afford a family with Cory still in school for the next 6 years. I wish I could see just a little bit of how the future will be.

I've never wanted anything more than to be a mother. I do have ambitions and things that I want to be or become but nothing that compares with having my own children. And yet, the more I think about what's in store for us, the more I wonder if that aspect of my life will be possible as soon as I was hoping it would. The more I think about it the more likely it seems that we just won't be able to afford it or handle the stress until we leave Provo and honestly, it kinda hurts. I go over these things and all the different scenarios over and over in my head but I can never draw any real conclusions. I've been trying to learn to trust the Lord but I've always been a forward thinker and being so unsure about so many things is hard. It's hard for me to humble myself to that extent. It's hard being so patient.

Nicole is here!

My mom and my sister came to Provo Monday night because NICOLE IS A FRESHMAN AT BYU and we've been getting her ready for living in the dorms and moving in and all that jazz. It's been great having them here and I'm really excited to have Nicole around. We don't get along too well when we have to live together but we can be really great friends if we just hang out once in a while. Anyway, we went to IKEA today to get her some things she needed and Cory and I bought some kitchen things we were wanting. We also went to DI and got a really nice ficus. Oh, and I love having my mom in town. She always buys me things. Like yesterday she brought home this gorgeous lamp and two nice bookshelves for us to put the rest of our books on. It's great to have them out of boxes. I'm so spoiled. And she's helping me decorate our new apartment. She's so much better at it than I am and I'm glad she's here to help.

P.S. This is my trying to keep goal #3. Today the blog was just more convenient than my journal.

Goodness

I honestly don't know what to do with myself sometimes. It's 11:30 pm and I'm home by myself because Cory is in New Mexico for the weekend. And for whatever reason I just can't bring myself to go to bed. I'm not being productive in the slightest. I'm just sitting here at the computer facebook and blog stalking people. What is my problem? I know I could accomplish so much if I could just apply myself. I need a new outlook on life and new goals.

Are you ready for this? You better hold me to this!

1. I'm going to have personal scripture study every morning before I eat breakfast for at least 20 minutes.

2. I'm going to exercise daily whether that be my various exercise tapes or an aerobics class or a walk with Cory after dinner or anything in between.

3. I'm going to be a better journal keeper. I need to record my memories. I've always prided myself on having a really excellent memory but I know I won't be able to remember the lovely little details of my life forever and I want to be able to look back on this time when I'm old and wrinkly and smile about it.

4. I'm going to be an early to bed early to rise person. Cory is a night owl and so it's hard to get to bed before 11:30 but I'm going to try my hardest to be in bed with or without him (hopefully with him).

5. I'm going to limit my computer time. The brethren talk about this all the time, how we should limit our time with technology and spend that time being productive or with our families. If you see me on facebook chat, tell me to get off :)

6. This semester I am going to be a great student. This is my big one. I usually just scrape by with the bare minimum on my assignments and with cramming for tests but I'm going to make a conscious effort to actually learn this semester. I only have two left and I'm determined to make the most of them.

Well that's it. I don't actually expect you to make sure I keep my goals but it helps me stay faithful to them when I think somebody else is expecting me to do these things.

Love you all tons!

I can't wait!!! I'm flying to Portland TOMORROW to see my hubby! I miss him like Alice misses Dinah; like Wendy misses Peter; like Louie misses Becky; like Tessa misses Guy; like Ai Ling misses Chen Yong; like Katniss misses Gale :) NOT like Bella misses Edward. Oh Heaven forbid, NO.

oops

I'm an awful blogger. I completely missed this last semester. After we got back from Christmas I was just waiting for enough time to write about our break but it just never came. Oh well, I guess we'll skip the last 4 months and I'll start with our big news now.

We're MOVING!!!

I'm pretty excited about it. We'll still be in Provo but we're going to a bigger apartment with a dishwasher and a washer and dryer. We found someone to buy our contract yesterday so we're moving out around May 20th and Cory will be going home to Oregon for a month and a half to keep residency and I'll be living with Maren while Parker is in Florida and then when Cory gets back at the end of June we'll move into our new place and be there for the next two years. I'm really jazzed about it! Cory is excited too but you can tell he doesn't really want to move our stuff around twice. It will be fabulous and the hard part will all be over soon and then we have this wonderful new place to call home.